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The War Inside Me

by Dismantled

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1.
Intro 02:14
2.
Insecthead 03:13
(Oh, God) My stomach's on backwards And my blood's turned to powder Can you help me out? (Oh, God) My skull is changing shape And when I look in the mirror All I see is an insecthead (Oh, God) They're in the ceiling tiles This whole god damned place is bugged Gonna find these motherfuckers (Oh, God) I'm outside your front door And if your shit is unlocked I'm gonna come inside, come inside I want your blood on my teeth Your dirt on my face Smear all the walls with your best pose yet I want your blood on my teeth Your dirt on my face Smear all the walls with your best pose yet I think I'm gonna.. Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Can you help me? Can you help me? Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Can you help me? Can you help me out?... (Oh, God) I'm running through the forest With your skin in the wind Like the flags on Independence Day (Oh, God) It's getting darker and deeper The only light that guides me Are the flashbacks of you on your knees (Oh, God) When are you gonna put a bullet in my head? I know they all can't wait To have my head on a silver plate (Oh, God) Can't you see that I'm laughing? This life is one sick joke And we all hang from the highest branches Blood on my teeth Your dirt on my face Smear all the walls with your best pose yet I want your blood on my teeth Your dirt on my face Smear all the walls with your best pose yet I think I'm gonna.. Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Can you help me? Can you help me? Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Fuck my way out of this mess Can you help me? Can you help me out?...
3.
(How many of you do I have to kill?) It's kill or be killed Everyday, everyone knows the drill It always starts, put your trust in me So many blades to choose Do you want it deep in your back Or should I make you run towards me while I hold it out? And now we touch It's so damn electric to me When you're bleeding like a stuck pig on these sheets What's that you say? You don't feel a god damn thing? Well, let it settle in your stomach Nothing's instant or for free How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) (How many of you do I have to kill, kill, kill, kill?) You're taking shots to the face I can tell that you're open wide So independent, either spit or swallow it down And then move on from one cesspool to the next You call it self-promotion, I call it incest And still we touch It's still so electric to me When you say there's nothing left of what we used to be What's that you say? You don't owe me a god damn thing? I put it in so deep, you're gonna feel it in your stomach, bitch! You never had it like this before How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (Sing it) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? (How many of you do I have to kill, kill, kill, kill?) How many of you do I have to kill To get on top of this ugly hill? Put your trust in me... (How many of you do I have to kill?) It's kill or be killed Everyday, everyone knows the drill It always starts, put your trust in me It's kill or be killed Everyday, everyone knows the drill It always starts, put your trust in me
4.
Disease 04:40
I live I love I take I give You chased This dream Now I fire At will So hold me Feel me Touch me I'm free Hold me Feel me Fuck me I'm free But don't trust this skin Because I'm not a person, I'm a fucking disease Disease... What's that I hear? You're lost At sea And your heart It's cracked Eggshells On ice So hold me Feel me Touch me I'm free You better hold me Feel me Fuck me I'm free But don't trust this skin Because I'm not a person, I'm a fucking disease Disease... I'm a fucking disease You fucking whore...
5.
This is pure hate None of that woe-is-me bullshit Get in the fire And burn like hell I can still see your eyes Running through the smoke Wish I was slitting your throat Over and over again (Over again...) Over and over again (Over again...) Thank God I'll be Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground I'll sell you all my emotions So I don't have to feel anything For anyone anymore Trust me, it's better when my eyes are glass While you're screaming "I'm sorry!" On top of your lungs Manipulator shouldn't be a word It should be carved through your throat So you bleed every time you talk And that ain't blood running down your neck It's just sugar for the next motherfucker to get their taste On impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Hit the fucking ground... That ain't blood running down your neck... It's just sugar for the next motherfucker Thank God I'll be Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Dead on impact Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground Hit the fucking ground... Thank God I'll be dead... Dead on impact
6.
Excess 05:26
I can't remember What I did Who I fucked What I said to your face You know, it's all a big blur I can't remember What I ate What I drank What I chewed or spit out It's all a big blur I can't remember If I stumbled If I fell Did I drag you along? You know, it's all big blur I can't remember All the blood All the vomit Up the stairs, all the missed calls It's all a big blur But now I'm wide awake And still in your arms You forgave everything I finally found the right one I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat Love, love I'll shove it down your throat I can't remember What I did Who I fucked What I said to your face You know, it's all a big blur I can't remember What I ate What I drank What I chewed on, spit out It's all a big blur I can't remember If I stumbled If I fell Did I drag you along? You know, it's all big blur I can't remember What I ever did To make you think this Would ever last When you knew from the start I'm just an insect in an empty world Wish I had a million mouths I'll suck you off 'til I'm dead and you're dry I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat Love, love I'll shove it down your throat (I fuck first, ask questions last...) 'Cause II don't Feel anything Yeah, I don't Feel anything I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat I'm all about the excess, baby I know you don't want it this way But let me show you just how I Love, love I'll shove it down your throat Love, love I'll shove it down your throat Love, love I'll shove it down your throat Love, love I'll shove it down your throat
7.
I saw hell on the bathroom floor Bleeding, screaming, begging for more The eyes all rolled back, the whites are solid black gold You say this is the last time, but I want more You got strength in numbers Strength in numbers Why spread your wings if there's no one watching? Strength in numbers Strength in numbers Why spread your wings if there's no one watching? Why spread your legs if there's no one watching? She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait 'til I get the propane She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait 'til I get the propane I'll blow you all to hell... I saw hell on the bathroom floor Bleeding, screaming, begging for more The eyes all rolled back, the whites are solid black gold You say "Hold me close" but my hands are saws You got strength in numbers Strength in numbers Why spread your wings if there's no one watching? Strength in numbers Strength in numbers Why spread your legs if there's no one watching? I never knew your face could be As white as these tiles And if I stare at the wall long enough I see the insects crawling up and down And one of them has the face of God He says "I'll show you the way" So I said, "Why don't you crawl inside her mouth? I wanna see if she'll change" But she's still the same Still the same She's still the same She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait, yeah, just wait She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait 'til I get the propane She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait 'til I get the propane She fucks better on cocaine Wash it down with champagne Calls me up and says "There's no pain" Well, just wait 'til I get the propane I'll blow you all to hell...
8.
You might see me in the downtown bright lights Trying to sell every last breath that I have You might see me in the underground dim fog Trying to break the silence of the maddening crowd You gotta talk, talk, talk 'Til you're spitting out words You gotta walk, walk, walk 'Til you're stuck in the dirt You gotta fuck, fuck, fuck 'Til you feel like you're grinding metal The whore inside me It won't let go, it won't give up, I know The war inside me It won't stop now, it won't let go, I know And when I'm over There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go And they have all got The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say "I've got a soul" "I've got" You might see me in the war-torn skyline Picking up the pieces of the last Antichrist But you'll never see me lose hope, I've got faith Build it all back 'til the anthill stands You gotta talk, talk, talk 'Til you're spitting out words You gotta walk, walk, walk 'Til you're stuck in the dirt You gotta fuck, fuck, fuck 'Til you feel like you're grinding metal, metal The whore inside me It won't let go, it won't give up, I know The war inside me It won't stop now, it won't let go, I know And when I'm over There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go And they have all got The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say "I've got a soul" "I've got a soul" The whore inside meIt won't stop now, it won't let go, I know The war inside meIt won't stop now, it won't let go, I know And when I'm over There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go And they have all got The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say "I've got a soul" "I've got a soul"
9.
Running over Xerox copies of myself I killed them all, there's really no one left I wish I wasn't so indifferent But God put it in a perfect sequence See the smoke still rising in my rear-view mirror And I keep telling myself that They're in hell, I'm in heaven And I'm never coming down, never coming They're in hell, I'm in heaven And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now Haven't slept or eaten anything for days But still got enough ammo left for the rest of my fucking friends Yeah, I'll get into town and cut the power Blood-soaked snow, all that's left when I'm done here Plus I got enough rope to hang you all in the wind See the trees on the edge of that hill? I'm in heaven And I'm never coming down, never coming They're in hell, I'm in heaven And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now They're in hell, I'm in heaven And I'm never coming down, never coming They're in hell, I'm in heaven And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now There's too much sweat dripping on this steering wheel I set this whole town ablaze but now I can't see shit, oh, wel lThis car goes up to 150 miles an hour Jam the accelerator for the hills and valleys Oh, just my luck, there's a fuel truck up ahead I'd rather burn alive then be stuck on a cliff somewhere Repeating your name Repeating your name Repeating your name over and over again Repeating your name Repeating your name Repeating your name over and over and over again I'd rather burn in hell... Fuck you all, you never saw me This is all I ever had, all I ever Fuck you all, I tried to warn you Now scrape the bullets from your eyes, bullets from your eyes Watch the news tomorrow, you'll know my name
10.
The freeway curves upward Can't see the top So steep you'll have to crawl Against the wind, beating to and fro' So give it all you got Face against the concrete Just one inch closer and the gates are in reach They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try... I'd rather watch all you maggots turn into flies They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try... I'd rather watch all you maggots as you turn into flies Watch all you maggots as you turn into flies I can see clearly now The whole gate is a jaw Eighty feet unhinged into the funnel above Instead of teeth sticking out, There's faces frozen in ice They mouth "betrayer" while Their eyes turn black I wanna scream it right back But I've got no tongue 'Cause all they fed me was poison All that they taught split my mouth in half And in the center there's a hole That they took from my heart And now it's sucking me down And I'm falling and falling and falling... They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try This isn't me, this isn't 5 AM My face is not against the concrete While the headlights zoom in And I don't hear a skull crack As I'm floating awayI don't know who that is Lying smashed in the Southbound lanes
11.
Black Heart 06:21
I will let you in Like the thousands before you Let you crack my skin Oh, doesn't that feel good? You can be dead or alive It doesn't matter to me 'Cause once you're inside I'll never let you be free 'Cause I got a black heart Why did you ever follow? When you saw my eyes You should've ran for cover And when I held you close You were just something to feel I've got a black heart I'll do it to you like they did it to me Now it's 6 AM There's pills all over the bed My eyes inside your head And you're the moth burning in their flame You hear my voice on the phone But it'll just tell you what you want to hear There's nothing more The more you beat your wings The thicker you will feel the ice grow And when you're foaming out the mouth And I'm breaking down that door, I hope you know I got a black heart Why did you ever follow? When you saw my eyes You should've ran for cover And when I held you close You were just something to feel I've got a black heart I'll do it to you like they did it to me... To me Now you're awake and we're together again You see the trees floating by like the ocean waves I know you're bound and gagged but it's better this way I can't stand to hear you tell me you still care I whisper to you "baby, this is the end" I found a way out We'll be here forever Just dust, floating in the summer air

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The whole album was inspired by the album Brand New - Daisy. Bleak, dead, in a forest. This was the most difficult album to make on my own but is the exact essence of what Dismantled evolved into and is the clearest glimpse into my inner mind. Not attempting this again.

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released June 14, 2011

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