The War Inside Me

by Dismantled

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The whole album was inspired by the album Brand New - Daisy. Bleak, dead, in a forest. This was the most difficult album to make on my own but is the exact essence of what Dismantled evolved into and is the clearest glimpse into my inner mind. Not attempting this again.

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released June 14, 2011

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Track Name: Insecthead
(Oh, God)

My stomach's on backwards
And my blood's turned to powder
Can you help me out? (Oh, God)

My skull is changing shape
And when I look in the mirror
All I see is an insecthead (Oh, God)

They're in the ceiling tiles
This whole god damned place is bugged
Gonna find these motherfuckers (Oh, God)

I'm outside your front door
And if your shit is unlocked
I'm gonna come inside, come inside

I want your blood on my teeth
Your dirt on my face
Smear all the walls with your best pose yet

I want your blood on my teeth
Your dirt on my face
Smear all the walls with your best pose yet

I think I'm gonna..
Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess

Can you help me?
Can you help me?

Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess

Can you help me?
Can you help me out?...

(Oh, God)

I'm running through the forest
With your skin in the wind
Like the flags on Independence Day (Oh, God)

It's getting darker and deeper
The only light that guides me
Are the flashbacks of you on your knees (Oh, God)

When are you gonna put a bullet in my head?
I know they all can't wait
To have my head on a silver plate (Oh, God)

Can't you see that I'm laughing?
This life is one sick joke
And we all hang from the highest branches

Blood on my teeth
Your dirt on my face
Smear all the walls with your best pose yet

I want your blood on my teeth
Your dirt on my face
Smear all the walls with your best pose yet

I think I'm gonna..

Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess

Can you help me?
Can you help me?

Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess
Fuck my way out of this mess

Can you help me?
Can you help me out?...
Track Name: Kill Or Be Killed
(How many of you do I have to kill?)

It's kill or be killed
Everyday, everyone knows the drill
It always starts, put your trust in me
So many blades to choose
Do you want it deep in your back
Or should I make you run towards me while I hold it out?
And now we touch
It's so damn electric to me
When you're bleeding like a stuck pig on these sheets
What's that you say?
You don't feel a god damn thing?
Well, let it settle in your stomach
Nothing's instant or for free

How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
(How many of you do I have to kill, kill, kill, kill?)

You're taking shots to the face
I can tell that you're open wide
So independent, either spit or swallow it down
And then move on from one cesspool to the next
You call it self-promotion, I call it incest
And still we touch
It's still so electric to me
When you say there's nothing left of what we used to be
What's that you say?
You don't owe me a god damn thing?
I put it in so deep, you're gonna feel it in your stomach, bitch!

You never had it like this before

How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(Sing it)
How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?
(How many of you do I have to kill, kill, kill, kill?)

How many of you do I have to kill
To get on top of this ugly hill?

Put your trust in me...

(How many of you do I have to kill?)

It's kill or be killed
Everyday, everyone knows the drill
It always starts, put your trust in me
It's kill or be killed
Everyday, everyone knows the drill
It always starts, put your trust in me
Track Name: Disease
I live
I love
I take
I give
You chased
This dream
Now I fire
At will

So hold me
Feel me
Touch me
I'm free
Hold me
Feel me
Fuck me
I'm free

But don't trust this skin
Because I'm not a person, I'm a fucking disease

Disease...

What's that I hear?
You're lost
At sea
And your heart
It's cracked
Eggshells
On ice

So hold me
Feel me
Touch me
I'm free
You better hold me
Feel me
Fuck me
I'm free

But don't trust this skin
Because I'm not a person, I'm a fucking disease

Disease...
I'm a fucking disease

You fucking whore...
Track Name: Dead On Impact
This is pure hate
None of that woe-is-me bullshit
Get in the fire
And burn like hell
I can still see your eyes
Running through the smoke
Wish I was slitting your throat
Over and over again
(Over again...)
Over and over again
(Over again...)
Thank God I'll be
Dead on impact

Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
I'll sell you all my emotions
So I don't have to feel anything
For anyone anymore
Trust me, it's better when my eyes are glass
While you're screaming "I'm sorry!"
On top of your lungs
Manipulator shouldn't be a word
It should be carved through your throat
So you bleed every time you talk
And that ain't blood running down your neck
It's just sugar for the next motherfucker to get their taste

On impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground

Hit the fucking ground...

That ain't blood running down your neck...
It's just sugar for the next motherfucker

Thank God I'll be
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground
Dead on impact
Don't say I'm falling 'til I hit the fucking ground

Hit the fucking ground...

Thank God I'll be dead...
Dead on impact
Track Name: Excess
I can't remember
What I did
Who I fucked
What I said to your face
You know, it's all a big blur

I can't remember
What I ate
What I drank
What I chewed or spit out
It's all a big blur

I can't remember
If I stumbled
If I fell
Did I drag you along?
You know, it's all big blur

I can't remember
All the blood
All the vomit
Up the stairs, all the missed calls
It's all a big blur

But now I'm wide awake
And still in your arms
You forgave everything
I finally found the right one

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how I
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how I
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat

I can't remember
What I did
Who I fucked
What I said to your face
You know, it's all a big blur

I can't remember
What I ate
What I drank
What I chewed on, spit out
It's all a big blur

I can't remember
If I stumbled
If I fell
Did I drag you along?
You know, it's all big blur

I can't remember
What I ever did
To make you think this
Would ever last
When you knew from the start
I'm just an insect in an empty world
Wish I had a million mouths
I'll suck you off 'til I'm dead and you're dry

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how
I Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how
I Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat

(I fuck first, ask questions last...)

'Cause II don't
Feel anything
Yeah, I don't
Feel anything

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how
I Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat

I'm all about the excess, baby
I know you don't want it this way
But let me show you just how
I Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Love, love
I'll shove it down your throat
Track Name: The Bathroom Floor
I saw hell on the bathroom floor
Bleeding, screaming, begging for more
The eyes all rolled back, the whites are solid black gold
You say this is the last time, but I want more

You got strength in numbers
Strength in numbers
Why spread your wings if there's no one watching?
Strength in numbers
Strength in numbers
Why spread your wings if there's no one watching?
Why spread your legs if there's no one watching?

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait 'til I get the propane

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait 'til I get the propane

I'll blow you all to hell...

I saw hell on the bathroom floor
Bleeding, screaming, begging for more
The eyes all rolled back, the whites are solid black gold
You say "Hold me close" but my hands are saws

You got strength in numbers
Strength in numbers
Why spread your wings if there's no one watching?
Strength in numbers
Strength in numbers
Why spread your legs if there's no one watching?

I never knew your face could be
As white as these tiles
And if I stare at the wall long enough
I see the insects crawling up and down
And one of them has the face of God
He says "I'll show you the way"
So I said, "Why don't you crawl inside her mouth?
I wanna see if she'll change"

But she's still the same
Still the same
She's still the same

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait, yeah, just wait

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait 'til I get the propane

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait 'til I get the propane

She fucks better on cocaine
Wash it down with champagne
Calls me up and says "There's no pain"
Well, just wait 'til I get the propane

I'll blow you all to hell...
Track Name: The Whore Inside Me
You might see me in the downtown bright lights
Trying to sell every last breath that I have
You might see me in the underground dim fog
Trying to break the silence of the maddening crowd
You gotta talk, talk, talk
'Til you're spitting out words
You gotta walk, walk, walk
'Til you're stuck in the dirt
You gotta fuck, fuck, fuck
'Til you feel like you're grinding metal

The whore inside me
It won't let go, it won't give up, I know
The war inside me
It won't stop now, it won't let go, I know
And when I'm over
There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go
And they have all got
The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say
"I've got a soul"
"I've got"

You might see me in the war-torn skyline
Picking up the pieces of the last Antichrist
But you'll never see me lose hope, I've got faith
Build it all back 'til the anthill stands

You gotta talk, talk, talk
'Til you're spitting out words
You gotta walk, walk, walk
'Til you're stuck in the dirt
You gotta fuck, fuck, fuck
'Til you feel like you're grinding metal, metal

The whore inside me
It won't let go, it won't give up, I know
The war inside me
It won't stop now, it won't let go, I know
And when I'm over
There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go
And they have all got
The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say
"I've got a soul"
"I've got a soul"

The whore inside meIt won't stop now, it won't let go, I know
The war inside meIt won't stop now, it won't let go, I know
And when I'm over
There'll be a million more, there'll be a billion more to go
And they have all got
The nerve to say, the fucking nerve to say
"I've got a soul"
"I've got a soul"
Track Name: Scrape The Bullets From Your Eyes
Running over Xerox copies of myself
I killed them all, there's really no one left
I wish I wasn't so indifferent
But God put it in a perfect sequence
See the smoke still rising in my rear-view mirror
And I keep telling myself that

They're in hell, I'm in heaven
And I'm never coming down, never coming
They're in hell, I'm in heaven
And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now

Haven't slept or eaten anything for days
But still got enough ammo left for the rest of my fucking friends
Yeah, I'll get into town and cut the power
Blood-soaked snow, all that's left when I'm done here
Plus I got enough rope to hang you all in the wind
See the trees on the edge of that hill?

I'm in heaven
And I'm never coming down, never coming
They're in hell, I'm in heaven
And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now

They're in hell, I'm in heaven
And I'm never coming down, never coming
They're in hell, I'm in heaven
And they'll never hurt me now, never hurt me now

There's too much sweat dripping on this steering wheel
I set this whole town ablaze but now I can't see shit, oh, wel
lThis car goes up to 150 miles an hour
Jam the accelerator for the hills and valleys
Oh, just my luck, there's a fuel truck up ahead
I'd rather burn alive then be stuck on a cliff somewhere

Repeating your name
Repeating your name
Repeating your name over and over again
Repeating your name
Repeating your name
Repeating your name over and over and over again

I'd rather burn in hell...

Fuck you all, you never saw me
This is all I ever had, all I ever
Fuck you all, I tried to warn you
Now scrape the bullets from your eyes, bullets from your eyes

Watch the news tomorrow, you'll know my name
Track Name: Can't See The Top
The freeway curves upward
Can't see the top
So steep you'll have to crawl
Against the wind, beating to and fro'
So give it all you got
Face against the concrete
Just one inch closer and the gates are in reach

They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try...
I'd rather watch all you maggots turn into flies

They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try...
I'd rather watch all you maggots as you turn into flies
Watch all you maggots as you turn into flies

I can see clearly now
The whole gate is a jaw
Eighty feet unhinged into the funnel above
Instead of teeth sticking out,
There's faces frozen in ice
They mouth "betrayer" while
Their eyes turn black
I wanna scream it right back
But I've got no tongue
'Cause all they fed me was poison
All that they taught split my mouth in half
And in the center there's a hole
That they took from my heart
And now it's sucking me down
And I'm falling and falling and falling...

They say it's easy if you try, but I won't try

This isn't me, this isn't 5 AM
My face is not against the concrete
While the headlights zoom in
And I don't hear a skull crack
As I'm floating awayI don't know who that is
Lying smashed in the Southbound lanes
Track Name: Black Heart
I will let you in
Like the thousands before you
Let you crack my skin
Oh, doesn't that feel good?
You can be dead or alive
It doesn't matter to me
'Cause once you're inside I'll never let you be free

'Cause I got a black heart
Why did you ever follow?
When you saw my eyes
You should've ran for cover
And when I held you close
You were just something to feel
I've got a black heart
I'll do it to you like they did it to me

Now it's 6 AM
There's pills all over the bed
My eyes inside your head
And you're the moth burning in their flame
You hear my voice on the phone
But it'll just tell you what you want to hear
There's nothing more
The more you beat your wings
The thicker you will feel the ice grow
And when you're foaming out the mouth
And I'm breaking down that door, I hope you know

I got a black heart
Why did you ever follow?
When you saw my eyes
You should've ran for cover
And when I held you close
You were just something to feel
I've got a black heart
I'll do it to you like they did it to me...
To me

Now you're awake and we're together again
You see the trees floating by like the ocean waves
I know you're bound and gagged but it's better this way
I can't stand to hear you tell me you still care
I whisper to you "baby, this is the end"
I found a way out

We'll be here forever
Just dust, floating in the summer air